Senang tapi sedih..

I'm really happy coz i feel have a lot of friend..
I'm really happy when i was walking there are many people say hay to me...
I'm really happy if people aware that i'm in there....
But i really feel sad cz sometimes i feel lonely in the crowded place..
I feel i'm not have a true friend...or some people called best friend....
I can interact with the other easily..but i can leave them easily cz i my heart feel empty in that place..in that comunity.....
Sometimes i feel verry tired to be a "happy maker" people....
i just wear my mask when i'm in one comunity and make another mask to the other comunity...
Hufttt.....is there any someone who can make me feel that i'm really have true friend?????
Is the people who were i called friend now can settle for the "real me"..A girl who have labil emotion, easy to get upset....haha...actually as not as that but sometimes.........
I really understand as the saying is "Sepi dalam keramaian".....